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Let's try this again..... here are a few from yesterday. Not too many but still a glimpse of our crazy evening.

His very first turkey carving!!



Our very first Thanksgiving table.



Well, we can't ever be serious...



My nose looks about as big as my head...lovely

My little bros Ben and Dee playin the Kinects!

Little Luke came to the party too.

Sisily and Pops.

More Kinects!

Littlest bro and littlest sis.

HAHAHA!! K warming her toosh.

Thanksgiving

Yesterday was a fantastic day. We have so much to be thankful for these days that it was overflowing yesterday as my family came over for the holiday. It was our first time hosting a large meal and we both think it was a great success. Everyone got enough food, we all had fun, the fire was roaring, and Chris loved having a normal family get together. I was thankful he enjoyed himself so much. It was great seeing him so happy for the first time in a very long time. It was a bittersweet happiness but happy nontheless.

This morning we headed over to one of my best friend's new and beautiful homes for an after thanksgiving brunch. It was yummy!

We did brave the black friday world this afternoon. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but then again I wasn't out at the booty crack of the am hours. And, we only needed to get a watch band for Chris so we weren't weeding through the toys trying to find the leapster somethingorother. :)

Right now I'm hangin on the couch surfing websites about nothing because apparently all this gluten I've been eating is not agreeing with my stomach or intestines. I've got tons of things to and I feel like throwing up....lovely. Good food comes at a price for me. Hip to the hooray.

 Well, I am trying to upload some thanksgiving pics but the uploader isn't letting me. dumb.

hmmmmm

I want to start a fun blog post. in this post i want to do something fun. like susie who is posting a daily shoe challenge. There is also the 10 on Tuesday. There's a photo a day postings. But I want to do someting original.

Coming up with this idea is not as easy as I thought.

I thought, "silly saturday" where i post something fun/silly for viewing pleasure. dumb

Then i thought i'd take a picture, crop it and have people guess what the picture is. But with no prize or no reward for your guesses, who's gonna come back and guess all the time?

So, for now, I am brainstorming and accepting ideas for a fun new creative way to blog that is original.

enjoy your saturday! I am doing laundry and playing spiderman with my 5 year old daughter. yup. she's awesome!

trying

i'm trying to be better at blogging. however i'm not really sure why. I have about 3 people that i know follow this and comment but really, who cares? I've got nothing profound to say and even if i did, i think that i wouldn't be able to say it as eloquently as i may want to. so, for you 3 faithful followers, here's what's on my mind...

....i'm really tired today. i have a problem of forgetting to eat....and when you work out every single day, the day after you workout AND forget to eat, you're kinda tired. So, I'm takin a break from the gym today. tomorrow will be kick booty though!

....i'm really proud of my husband. like so proud i can't stand it. i'm amazed at how much he has endured over his lifetime and still has the attitude and outlook on life and people that he does. he should be a rebellious man who is still sowing his wild oats and cussing everyone out who he meets that doesn't think like him. but, he doesn't. he remains calm, collected and simply amazing every single day. in love!!

....my heart still longs to be pregnant. after 4 losses and no real reason for me to not be pregnant, my body is craving the feeling pregnancy brings. the little feet pushing my ribs, the hiccups that keep you awake, the heartbeat on the monitor and all those quirky pregnancy feelings that a lot of moms complain about. i guess you don't realize what you have when you have it easily. so for now, if you are pregnant, please don't complain to me about all those symptoms. tomorrow maybe. just not today. i'd kill to have those "problems" today.

....katelyn is SOARING through her lessons and soaking up sooooo much information in our little homeschool. even outside of school. i am completely amazed at how fast she is learning all this information! she is sounding out words on her own and spelling them; she is reading sentences, writing addition problems and simply yearning for more. God told us to pull her out of public school and boy he wasn't kidding! He knew she needed the one on one time to gain her confidence and have a little bit of pride her abilities. I'm so proud of her.

....lyme disease will always be a part of my life. And honestly, I am thankful for it. It was a terrible almost three years of pain, depression, anger, marital issues, bad parenting and just feeling like i was a no good person. But through all that, I gained so much knowledge, grew in the Lord, have been able to help others and have a new respect for the human body. as much as i hate that stupid bacteria, I am thankful for the experience that it gave me and all the lessons I learned in the process.

.....and now i'm off to clean my bathroom. exciting. i know. don't be too jealous.

thanks for stopping by!

bittersweet

Today I am happy yet with a heavy heart. Is that really possible....yes it is. You see, things change. They change all the time. This change has been almost 8 years in the making and its been an incredibly hard road to endure. But we've endured it. And today, we are happy. Maybe truly for the first time. That demon is gone and that demon will never be seen again. Growth, perseverance, endurance and lots and LOTS of prayer have brought us to where we are today. This day. This day that we are happy. This day that makes the rest all seem like a distant memory.

But the happiness is not without its change as well. Change that is a necessary step for healing and growth beyond our comprehension as we embark on this free road. With this change, hearts are broken, lives are forever different and family is lost.

My prayer for this day is that somewhere in the very near future, lives will be healed and families be brought back together because this is what HE wants. HE will have to do all this and I look forward to following this new path HE has laid before us.

Because YOU are worth it. Becuase YOU heal all wounds and YOU are amazing God.

A terrible web cam picture of my wet hair, katelyn's chocolate face and chris's red crusty "cold" nose. But we ARE happy.

Praise God.

To fill in the gap

Its been FOREVER since I've posted but this should be about what you should expect from me at this point. I love to journal and all that jazz but I just am not too good at the computer journaling...pen an dpaper is my preferred method of journaling. But, instead of trying to write the novel of all that has happened in the last few months, I stole this from my friend Susie on her blog. It just seemed fun!

enjoying: a toffee mocha from Starbucks

watching: Katelyn coloring in her new coloring book

eating: nothing

feeling: at peace

looking forward to: our future

wearing: tank top, jeans, and glasses

needing: my water running so i can take a shower, do the dishes, and go potty

wanting: to have enough money to do the things I want to do for all those that I love

missing: running water

Laughing: at Chris's frustration over a game of SOLITAIRE

working on: editing photos, folding the MOUNDS of laundry I have and planning the first Thanksgiving at my house

cooking: nothing. you need water for just about everything and I have none.

craving: the gym. weird i know....but the gym

grateful: for my Heavenly Father and His enduring faithfulness even when I doubt.

smiling: at my life. the pieces are starting to fall into place and I can't wait for what's next.

Well, I'm off to go find a bathroom. Ha! Don't eve take your toilets for grantid....cause we don't have the use of ours right now and its a chore just to go potty.

Have a great Wednesday and HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIAN!!! Hope your day is fabulous and I can't wait to see you hopefully next week!!