where the sidewalk ends

Well, as history goes, I'm due for an update. Once every couple of months for the 2 people who read this is good...don't ya think?

Its March and I am now 30.

K is 4.

4....what a crazy number. Who would have thought that by the end of my 20's I would have had 4 pregnancy losses and one healthy child. The end of January I had a miscarriage. I blame all the yuck medicine I had been on for Lyme's disease. But the blessing in that was despite the other 3 ectopic pregnancies, this pregnancy WAS in the uterus. PRAISE GOD!! Well, that's a duh seeing how He places the babies where He wants them anyways!

Speaking of Lyme...I wish I had done more research in regard to treating Lyme disease and gone the homeopathic route. But alas, this doc was highly recommended and I ran over to get the drugs. Hindsight being what it is, I would have prayed more about it and really sought after what direction God wanted me to go...He is after all The Great Physician. Wouldn't He know best what was best for healing me? I thought I had and maybe I did...but what is done is done and hopefully after April 6 I will get the all clear from the Doc. If not, anyone know a doc that will treat me naturally? No more antibiotics please 6 months is MORE than my little liver can handle.

I got a job for the first time since I was nanny before I got married 6 years ago. I don't count my 2 month stint with Vickie's Secret a REAL job. It was more of a joke job than anything. I now am working for a real estate agent here locally that ROCKS! He is in the historic district here in town and I am excited about it. Definitely something brought to me by God because I struggled with calling this guy back for fear that I would have to work or that I wouldn't be good at it. Well, while doing a bible study (after NOT calling him back) God told me to call this guy. I said no. And He said YES! NOW! So, I did and after chatting with this very eccentric man for about an hour and a half, I had a job doing something I have always wanted to do. It will be great because he is willing to work around Katelyn's school schedule and for that I am soooo grateful. Talk about answer to prayer! Anyways...I'm stocked and I have my dear friends Josh and Rian to thank for introducing us!

Katelyn is in school twice a week now. She absolutely loves it and fits right in. I'm amazed at her every day...we have our 4 year old days where I think it would be best that she started kindergarten TODAY and was gone all the time, but for the most part, she is a curious, spunky, sassy little princess that is just too cute for words most days....the days I don't want to strangle her that is!

Well I guess that's about it...I'm about as boring as could be right now. Just please pray that my Lyme is gone and no longer actively stressing my body. I'd like to be done with this chapter of my life. Maybe I'll write a book...God knows there are plenty of chapters already...

New Year!

2008 is gone...Welcome 2009!!!

I am excited beyond belief about this year!

I will become Lyme free!!

We will be financially and in all other ways FINALLY stable!

Katelyn will start preschool (bitter bitter sweet).

I turn 30 and leave my 20's behind (THANK GOD!!!).

Chris will celebrate 1 year of being a stinkin hott cop! I love a man in uniform...in case you didn't know! ;o)

I pray that this year we are blessed with yet another little baby. Only God knows when but I am hopeful for this year. As long as I am Lyme free I don't care when.

I have an amazing family that I love and love to spend time with.

I have amazing friends that challenge and inspire me every single day. I cherish you guys more than you know.

And the best part of it all is that I get to spend another year getting to know my Lord and Savior. My relationship with Him has never been better, yet could always be better and I look forward to growing in and with Him.

Thanks for stopping by and HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I hope you are as excited about this year as I am.

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Welcome to the world little Thaden Lewis! C's brother is now a Daddy! Thaden was born on the 31st and we could not be more excited to have another little cousin for Katelyn! She's the only girl but gets along great with the boys! Welcome Thaden you are so stinkin cute and we can't wait to hold and squeeze and love all over you! What a way to end 2008! Yea!!

Just cause...

....I wanna show off the beauty that is my daughter. She has been totally touching my heart lately. Despite her bratty-ness (which comes with the territory of 3.75 year old) she has such a wonderful spirit and heart. Her love for everyone and everything is infectious. I can't tell you how blessed I am to have been given this amazing gift of a daughter. If I never have another child I will die happy knowing that this precious little blessing was more than enough. She has touched so many people in so many different ways and most of all my own heart. I have learned so much from being her mom and continue to grow every single day. The Lord knew what He was doing (duh!!) giving her to me.

I love you sweet little miracle more than you'll ever know. Thank you for being you and being great. You are amazing!!

A little....

I saw this on someone else's blog, who borrowed it from someone else's blog; so I decided to let the borrowing continue :D

I AM ... excited about the future...for the first time.
I WANT… to be constantly mindful of what He is telling me.
I HAVE … a lot of love to give.
I KEEP... my heart guarded and don't let a lot of people TRULY in.
I WISH I COULD … sing in a church.
I HATE … it when I can't fix it.
I FEAR … not hearing what I should when I should and acting on it.
I HEAR …. beautiful music far too little.
I DON’T THINK … I could survive without Belief.
I REGRET … never taking chances growing up.
I LOVE … my life.
I AM NOT … ever going to look back.
I DANCE … far too little.
I SING … not nearly enough for others to hear...apparently.
I NEVER … want to say never again.
I RARELY … shower...its true.
I CRY WHEN I WATCH … "based on a true story" movies.
I AM NOT ALWAYS … rational.
I HATE THAT … I haven't finished school.
I’M CONFUSED ABOUT … when its ok to break a confidence.
I NEED …the hubby to be home now.
I SHOULD … go read my Bible.

Hope you enjoyed a little about me myself and I. It took a lot longer for me to fill out than I thought...

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...have you ever had so much to say but no words to say them with?

That's me right now.

I'm good at this blogging thing aren't I?!!

Well I have to say...this is pathetic. What's the point of a blog if I'm never on here and never post? Ahh well...

A lot has happened since I last posted. Where to begin....

I do NOT have Rocky Mountain Spotted fever. I have Lyme disease. Fun huh? I am on antibiotics right now and they seem to be keeping the symptoms at bay. They aren't totally gone but they are a lot less severe because of the medication. I go to the specialist on the 29th to figure out how to rid my body of this fantastic disease!

Chris is enjoying his new shift and schedule. Night shift. I am surprisingly ok with it all. It seems to work out best for us in the long run. He is gone while we sleep, he sleeps while we play and gets up in the afternoon to spend a good 5-6 hours with him before he leaves. That's more than we got to see him when he was working a regular 9-5 job...at least it seems that way because he is happy and its fun to be around him! ha!

Katelyn is having issues dealing with his absence. For most of her short little life her daddy was her night time buddy. He would bathe her, read her stories and put her to bed. Not every single night but most nights. Now, he isn't here at bed time and she has a hard time with it. Her sweet little spirit is so loving and warm that whenever anyone leaves she just melts. Her aunt (who is living with us) leaves for school and work and every time Katelyn follows her to the door telling her 50 times she loves her. "Have a nice day!" "I love you to the moon and back Lala!" Every. Single. Time. She does that with her daddy...she does that when I leave (on the rare occasion that I DO!). She has the most precious spirit. So loving, kind and never a stranger does she meet. I had a photo shoot sunday with an old friend from high school that Katelyn had never met. I had to take her with me (she's also a great assistant!!) because Chris was sleeping. Well, by the time we left, K had told my friend she loved her like 5 times. It was sweet. SO, all that to say...she hates it when people leave...especially her Daddy and it just breaks her heart. Oh how she loves him and never wants him to leave!!

In other news...it looks like the search for a place to live in the town of C's employment has come to a halt. Both C and I have felt the Lord keeping us here for now. We know and are willing to move whenever He says jump but right now, we feel Him keeping us grounded here. This will allow for us to get on our feet financially, be stable for a change and even put K in school next semester. So...we are super excited about this and just ready to hear what God has for us next.

Well...this computer has been sitting in front of me for a few hours now because of the 3 photo shoots from this weekend I had to process. I am finally DONE and am really ready to go read some before I hit the sack.

Thanks for stopping by!

The results are in....sorda

Okay...so my leave of absence is due to....Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever! Yea that's it!!

Well, as some of you may or may not know, I have been to the doctor lately. A lot. A rare occurrence unless pregnant or post op. I have never liked going to the doctor and it usually takes me months of feeling terrible before I do anything about it. Case in point my 3 month pulled back that FINALLY healed after going to a new PCP ( I hadn't been to a PCP since I was 18) and getting muscle relaxers to help heal me. So, I don't go to the docs. I've never really had a need....until recently.

About 2 weeks ago I started having major hearing problems. I've always had "slight" hearing loss and/or issues but this time I seriously thought I was going deaf. Conversations were very difficult and other sounds were just plain deafening. So, my dear friend suggested I come see the doc she works for (an ENT) and the first thing I should do in preparation for that is get a hearing test done.

So I did. And I have moderate hearing loss in both ears. DUH! I coulda told you that! My right ear is better than my left but still not where it should be for a gal my age...according to the ENT.

Well, I get my hearing tested and wait to see the ENT. While waiting for my appointment I start having these weird dizzy spells. They come on suddenly and last 2 days. The intensity of the "dizziness" subsides after a few hours but for about a day and half all I can do is lay around in bed for fear of falling down due to vertigo and/or running into the walls...which I did several times the first "episode". I have had two of the unexpected episodes in the last 2 weeks and I live in fear of the next one. Imagine this...if you can that is....being the absolute drunkest you have ever been JUST prior to the vomiting stage. Now stay that way for 7-8 hours. Yea. That's what the spells feel like. It's the worst. The episodes just come on without any warning and have me down for the count for 2 days. Then the next day and half I spend recovering and dizzy still. I have no clue as to what is causing all these weird things but we are on the right track because...

I just got off the phone with the results from my Monday's 7 vial blood draw to test for who knows what and found out that....

I have Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever.

Doc isn't sure if that is the sole cause of my dizzy episodes but at least that could explain why I have been so lethargic for months now, crampy all. the. time., headaches that I can't get rid of and a general state of crappiness. This is a tick born illness and apparently last YEAR when I had those random bites on my abdomen that lasted 3months...yea. those were ticks. Laying in bed...woke up with the bites. I'm seriously grossed out.

So, next step...who knows. I was told you get rid of the bacteria that is the "fever" with antibiotics. Now I just wait to hear back from the doc and PRAY that I don't have another dizzy episode. I've had one a week since this whole thing started and have yet to have one this week...pray OH pray!!!

and FYI...no it isn't contagious. You can still be around me without fear! ha!

That's what's goin on im my little world...what about yours?

Lately....

I have been busy.

~Photo shoots galore (check here for proof) and processing of said shoots.

~Katelyn has been different these days as well. I can't explain it other than she is continually trying to adjust to her daddy's ever changing training schedule. Its hard for her to not ever see her daddy and when she does she's so tired she just "wiggs" out and can't seem to calm down. I pray that after these next 9 weeks we find some sort of trick that helps ease her little missing heart and his schedule will be one that favors well for all of us.

~Money stinks...Lack of money stinks even more. And when the cause of your lack of money is your lack of responsiblity, its sucks a big one. Go US!!

Here is the latest little pix of me and my girl. I don't take my picture too often but when I do, I like to insure the cutesness by adding my sweetness!

Thanks for stoppin by! And don't forget to leave me a comment! It makes me happy!